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Why?

Why now? After all this time? If your answer is Always, I truthfully want to hit you so hard in the face that your head spins out of your shoulders and takes off to outer space. Don't lie, I hate it when you do it. Specially cause you are not that good at it. I never wanted any of this to happen, I just wanted peace in my mind and my soul. Is that a lot to ask? You placed in me a responsibility that was not mine to take. You wanted to assign me your piece of mind, you wanted me to save you. And I did, for sometime, I did it. I loved having that responsibility, I loved it because it made me feel superwoman, flawless and perfect. But I am not, I have flaws (hundreds of them) and when I looked at myself and saw my old bloody self again I felt horror, true horror, because what I saw was an almost dead person. And all of this happened so fast that not even you were able to reverse the horror growing in me, and you did a final act that would set a series of unfortunate even...

You told me so.

Oh yes, you all did. Don't trust them, don't be fooled by them, that is manipulation, they will try to play you. Oh how right you all were. Even my own mind is telling me, I TOLD YOU SO. But I still have time, for one final play, a final movement and win. Good thing they don't know me as well I as they wished.