A world from my point of view

Fer, Probably right now you are in our bed, reading this in the comfort of our old house, with no other preoccupations than the next exam or if mom and dad are angry or not. There isn't a lot I can tell you that will change your present situation or the upcoming situations that you will be involved in. But oh how I wished I could be that person you need to hug so badly, but I can't do that, what I can tell you is that you will make it even if you don't have that person to hug you. I'm not going to lie to you, it will get tough. There will be fights, screams and even punches, do not give up, do whatever it takes to keep moving forward. It doesn't matter who is left behind, if they want they will either walk with you or take their own path and that is okay. You have to look after yourself, love yourself, respect yourself and always do what is right for you. Do not worry about friends, trust me you will have friends that will love you for who you are (yes the w...

It was midnight. No one on their right mind would be out this late at night, not on this city, not on this street. And yet here we are, three people walking in this park that is barely illuminated and at the side of the prostitution street. A spot for innocence in the middle of a corrupted city. I look at the girl walking in front of me, she is so short, almost like a little kid, she walks with enthusiasm towards the swings giggling while looking back at me with a huge grin on her face. I look at my right side and see the man walking by my side, he has a grin on his face as well. He walks towards the little girl and starts pushing her on the swing, I go to the swing next to them and sit. He lets her go and starts pushing me so I can swing. I smile and feel his hands on the swing, I close my eyes as I feel every push. We laugh, we swinging,  it feels like if we were children again, like this is our playground. Space for innocence in the middle of a city that has lost its...

My favorite month of the year :D  More stories coming up soon, I had tons of work so I haven't been able to transcribe all the stories :S  But soon ok? Promise :D

I was chatting with a friend by IM and he sent me this: A few weeks ago I had a tune playing in my mind... I was unable to link it to a specific song I have heard. I went a little mad trying to figure out where I've heard it. Strangely enough I had a zone of the city linked to the song itself. I was odd as the place is quite familiar to me but still no coherent relationship could I figure out. besides it's a zone linked to my childhood. so this goes back to the beginning of time. Then it hit me where this tune came from. I heard it the time I went to your place and it was a song you sang that night. Awesome voice my friend thanks for touching my mind and memories. I was taken back, I blushed and smiled to the computer screen, it had been a long time since my voice was significant to someone other than my family. Maybe you will not read this Oliver, but thank you, thank you so much.

He woke up in the middle of the night. Again. Just like every night since he started having that dream. The dream was always the same, he was walking down by the creek when he saw a dark figure sitting there, as he came closer to it he saw it was a woman giving his back at him. The wind was playing with her long black hair, even her back was attractive. Just as soon as he was about to reach her he woke up. And every morning he woke up frustrated, he wanted to reach her, and to see her. The next day he decided to go for a walk to the forest near his house, just to clear his head. As soon as he arrived to the deepest part of the forest he started following the creek just like in his dream, he smiled and vowed his head at this coincidence. As soon as he looked up he saw it, a small figure sitting there just like in his dream. His heart started racing as he started walking faster towards the figure, afraid that it would vanish in the thin air. As he approached the figure he s...

There was a disaster drill at a local hospital, she had the best makeup - Imgur If I ever have a daughter I bet she will be like this

Wonder how much of this is true - Imgur Yeah ... How the fuck you do it ... ?!?!?!

Neil Gaiman - Home So I found his journal :D me happy!

Neil Gaiman’s MouseCircus.com | The Graveyard Book Video Tour Readings People, really this is actually the real deal please read it!

Solo es una fiesta, pensó el, solo una fiesta en la que no me tengo que quedar mucho rato. Camino hacia la puerta de madera, y se enderezo la camisa negra por enésima vez en la tarde. No se sentía muy cómodo en ella, se suponía que era una fiesta casual, nada muy formal. La música se escuchaba un poco incluso con la puerta cerrada, el suspiro y toco el timbre. La puerta se abrió casi inmediatamente revelando a su amiga con una enorme sonrisa. -¡Si viniste!- le dijo al mismo tiempo que le daba un enorme abrazo. - Pues sí, digo después de los casi 15 recordatorios que me mandaste por mensaje y llamada se me hizo casi imposible no venir.- El tono sarcástico que él ocupaba con ella era ya una broma personal que compartían, él le devolvió el abrazo con ganas.  - Oh pero que exagerado eres, solo fueron 2 llamadas y 3 mensajes, ven tienes que ver esto. Ella lo jalo hacia el interior del departamento, la música se escuchaba aún más fuerte que afuera, esto podría se...

It is not the same anymore, I am not the same. I have broken promises to family, friends and even to myself. I know why I have done that, I do not regret all of them, but some of them I wished I haven't done it at all. Today in specific I feel so damn angry, empty and lifeless but curiously creative. So maybe I'll update a drawing later on.

Things always have a reason to be, like when you have a minor accident in your house like dropping the keys in the sink before you go out, or that your jeans have a minor ink stain on a visible spot. Or that you loose something, like a necklace. All these things eventually will show up in a diferent event in your life and after something happening the lack or presence of such objects or situations an determine the course of action of a lot of people resulting into something even better than you have, even if it takes time. Sorry if I am raggling in my thoughts but I had to take it out of my mind.

So after a looooot of thought, I will buy my violin. I am determined to buy it and learned to play it, my grandfather wanted to learn, guess it's in my genetic code hahahaha. And this week is getting so boring but hey hey I did this with my new tablet : http://yvainescarlet.deviantart.com/art/Death-378889878 Yup that is my account in Deviantart :D Tomorrow is payday YAY! finally some decent food will come jajaja

We were having coffee, she was able to spear some time from her schedule. I looked at her, she always looked the same: black messy hair, white skin, black eyes with a thick black eyeliner and a little curl under her eyes. Black shirt, black pants and a black leather jacket. The only thing she wore as accessory would be her ank. She was always smiling. - What?- she said with a smile. God this woman and her smile could melt and iceberg. I smile back at her. -Nothing, I was just thinking that you always look the same.- I took a sip from my cappuccino. - No I don't!- She laughed. We drank the coffee silently after that, whenever I looked at her she would give me a smile. -I like doing this.- The words came out of my mouth before I could even stop myself. She looked at me puzzled. -What? Drinking coffee?- She said as she took another sip from her cup. Damn her, she always likes to make me say things out loud. -Yeah, that and also coming here with you. It is really nic...

So turns out we don't have a lot of work and I am poking my eyes out of boredom. Until I found a thing for memes ... is basically something you do with a cartoon character So that is what I´m gonna do now ... my drawings doing funny stuff. And ... my rommie is awesome! jajaja yeah she is super nice but I mean it is really fun to talk to her and stuff specially cause if we all play videogames she also gets excited jajaja Yesterday we bought food .. we spend a lot of money on food but for the first time in years I saw my fridge full! JAJAJA

Should I feel like I want to kick her ass? Should I feel sorry for her because the guy she loves is not picking her? Should I feel betrayed because I did hoped she could be my friend? I don't know ...  I only know ... I am angry at her, I do feel bad that she will not have the one she loves by her side, and I do feel like she back stabbed me ...  In the end I always knew we could never be friends ... How can I be friend of a woman that very deep down inside wants what I have been working my ass off to get?  How can I even worry about a woman that came and tried to be my friend and then declared her feelings to him knowing the good or bad consequences? And how could I ever trust a woman that says that appreciates me and then back stabs me? All I know is that this whole thing feels weird, but at least it is the truth, and that was all I wanted from the start. The truth never hurts as much as the lie. Never. And trut...

Yeah now I'm back to work, meaning that I am back at drawing and writing (my writing still SUCKS and my drawings well they aren't so bad I hope jajaja) I still want my violin ... :P so I guess I can still think about it for a few more months and buy it on November if I still feel like it :D Holy damn, I was just writing this when out of the blew a dude on the building in front was a dude hanging cleaning windows curiously that always freaks me out a little bit, I always feel like they will fall or something. Anyway here it is a little pic of it: Also seems like lately I have been obsessed with the character Loki (the one of the movie avenger) Yeah the bad guy ... damn my strange likeness for the fucked up guys jajaja. Meh as long as it is only on movies or books :P  yes yes later I'll place some writing here, but it will be bad very very bad AH and also here it is a pic of the tatto :P

So the day is finally here! Tomorrow I will be getting this dragon on my arm! YAY! And I have vacations until Monday!  About that a friend of mine came to my desk and got a really serious face. She said she needed to talk to me about something so I was like: And she asked me if I could possibly not take my vacations since she needed the day off as well, I asked her why? and she said well I was planning on going with my boy toy and my reaction was: To be perfectly honest this was a very elaborated joke (not) on her part but I think that she really didn't expected my answer. :P And right now I am bored ... That is why the use of gifs jeje  Oh also yesterday I did this:  And I think that would be it for now.

So like I said last week I was having the worst time writing so I starting doodling and mini me came to scene. Seems I like to draw her without getting bored so here are some pics :P (is not supposed to look awesome it is just for fun :D)  So this is what I am doing since there isn't a lot of work to do jeje. Oh and yeah ... tomorrow a friends is gonna move into my place ... and she is a clean freak, and girly girly ... she is cool, just very different from what I am. So I am kinda nervous about it. I see her like this : And I am more like .....:

SO since like a month and so I have been wishing to start learning violin. And I have been looking for one like crazy ... I mean I don't have the money right now but to know the price would help so I can start saving up :D And I found this one : It's so .. BLUE! (yeah yeah my favorite color :P) I still have no idea what will come up with this instrument, beyond the finger ache that will come in the mean time that I get used to it. Also I'm still trying to think of something to draw for my mother (Friday is mother's day here in mexico and I am broke til Tuesday) so any ideas would help out :D. And I'm also trying to write a story ... that isn't working so well :S maybe I'll post it here later on.

So today has been a very loooong long day, lots of calls lots of people being ... well people and I just wanna draw, or read or ... just sleep. So! I have the firm purpose of going home and doing this!  Or maybe just complete this drawings :D  my inner kid jeje  this was an attempt of drawing me, jonathan and alice (friends)

It hurts - DBThanatos - YouTube This song was made my best friend ... he just wrote it. I try not to think that this is because of his actually situation cause it kinda breaks my heart to see him like this ... It is actually good ... I liked it (and this is not in the point of view of the best friend) so I will put it here in case that someone would like to hear it :D

Getting into an argument on Reddit - Imgur That is the reaction we got from our boss when we reported that the remote access was down.

For the last few weeks I have the worst time trying to sleep. And this is because of something in particular ... I can't stop listening to the no sleep podcast. The stories are creepy, but I just love them. And now ... it sucks because I am picturing all kind of monsters. gaaaah (Oh and Alice I know you have been reading this blog and that somehow you decided to erase the romeo and juliet one you will pay for that sister)

I'm taking care of 3 men that an emotional wreck right now ... It is a little bit overwhelming ... the 3 of them are sending me messages by chat or phone ... but I'm just here trying to be cool like I am (aja yeah right) And calls ring rang here and there la la la la .... Ugh I want to go home to see a movie or something.

http://instagram.com/p/YYcmf8CYFJ/ Food time ... And also called el.titi pollo

You left us 3 years ago ... And today I miss you more than ever. Oh how much I would like to sing with you again! I would like for you to hug me and tell me that I am being too girly. Yesterday was my mom's birthday. It was not really on my plans to go by myself, but c'est la vie. I wonder if I will eventually have peace and stop struggling with everything. There was a time when I was not this troubled, I was at peace with my feelings and thoughts. Now ... I wished you could be here so we could share the songs we used to sing. I still can't sing well in front of others ... not at my full potential .. not since you have been gone ... But, even if I miss you terribly, and I think of you every single day, I will try my best to keep on singing ... cause you made me promise. And ... you believed in me. There are now others that believe in me as well, and it is awesome, you would like them. Jonathan, I always thought I would die before you, funny huh? I am s...

So yeah today we had a few calls, nothing important really, then we had a call from a guy named Cuchillo. We all laughed for like half an hour. And this made our day ...

The words just don't come out anymore. I am speechless after this incident. How is it that after all I have accomplished I ended up like this? The fields were greener, the sky was clear and the clouds were made of different colors. Now ... my clouds look in a simple white ... there seems to be no more yellow, grey or blue in my clouds. I want it back ... I want my world back. There was a time when I wouldn't have cared ... but now I do, they taught me to care about others and their feelings. And now I suffer with them and because of them. I still feel like I want to say something, something very important, but the words just won't come out. Seems my brain does not know any words for what I am feeling. It does not matter what words I speak ... seems like you don't understand me nor the fact that this feelings are not regular for me. I maybe seem like I get along with everyone, it's a lie ... I usually don't care. All of it is a very well practice of a...

When I was younger, there was a time when I could swear there was someone staring at me in the dark. This was something that happened every night for at least 4 months, it never really made me feel upset I just wanted to know who or what was watching me. One night I gathered all my courage and decided to stay up all night. I was ready with my mother's hand light thinking that the light would keep me safe from anything. My room used to be big, maybe too big for this situation, my bed was exactly on the middle so I was able to see the door that led to the hallway and the other door that was the closet. I used to think that does doors will be the way for the thing that was watching me to go into my room, I was so sure. I was staring at the main door when I felt it right in the corner of the room, the corner that I was not looking ... I started feeling nervous, so I turned my head slowly to the corner and there it was, he was hiding on the shadows of the room. It ...